I'll be back

I'm back in my miserable little home town and am craving coming back to the city so bad. Things are all kinda falling into place and I think that it was meant to be for me to pursue finding my sugar. I basically am going to be on call from my job for the next month and have no shifts scheduled what so ever!

So what am I going to do?

After my last shift on sunday I am coming back! I have already set up a few dates for next week and am going to try to make sure I get as many more as I can. Ima go hard! I want to finally find a real sugar daddy! I realized a long, long time ago that I will never find what I want in my area. So what better place to find men with tons of mulah and nothing better to do with it than to spend it on me??? NYC baby! lol

Yea ok enough with the nyc mania.. I am just really excited about meeting some REAL potentials. :)

Cant wait to be back in the city and experience some real Sugar.

Sex slave.. No allowance.. Ummm..

So I'm msging back and forth with this guy and conversation is good. Seems nice and lives in a great area. He has been msging me for a while so I figured that this might be worthwhile to pursue. Right?
Wrong!!
He asked me to send a few pics, which I did. He told me how gorgeous I am and how he would love to meet. He then proceeded to ask me, First Red Flag! how many people I have ever been with. He wanted me to break it down year by year and give names!! WTF!!!! To which I reply that it is completely none of his business. Second Red Flag!! He then states that he wants me to be his sex slave... I did not reply to that. So after a little more conversation I ask him what kind of arrangement he was looking for... To which he replies....

"Just having you as my sex slave. No allowance."

Come the fuck on!!! You gotta be kidding me!!!! Do you really think that I would go for that?? Get the Fuck out of here!!!

Being this psycho's sex slave is one thing, but to do it for FREE..... Hell NO!!!
I would NEVER...

*sigh*

The search goes on..

Yea...

So I did not meet up with Mr. ESPN today as planned. He waited too late and by that time I just did not feel like going.. Lazy.. I'll meet up with him next time.

I am happy about how the day went kinda because I made a lot of progress with my pots. One guy who msgd me wayyyyy back in like Jan. sent me another msg. Now this guy is HUGE, his income that is, and he is obviously very into me so I am going to get in really good with him and hopefully I have found a winner!

I also found a guy in Palm Beach, FL. Did I mention how much I love Florida?? Oh yes... This time I think I will make him come to me for the first meeting. :P Hope we click!

I have a few more really good ones. I can't wait until I can actually meet them!

I am leaving the city tomorrow afternoon sadly... :( But I will be back within the next 2 weeks or so. I have some time off of my job and I'm going to send my kids to be with their fam so.... I have a lot of time on my hands and lots of pots to work on! No more pots from my area! Ever again!! All they are looking for is a $250 hooker. Makes me sick!

NYC is the place to be!

The Client List

I am somewhat of a lifetime movie fanatic and while waiting for Mr. ESPN to call me back about our rendezvous tonight a movie trailer popped on the screen. The movie was titled The Client List starring Jennifer Love-Hewitt.
Here is the trailer. :)










Its crazy because even though I'm not married I dread for my boyfriend to find out what I am doing. Anyone else I don't really care. My best friend already knows and wants to be a part of it. Other than that it does not really matter.
And then even though I don't really call what I am looking for hookin... How many women are out there doing this kind of thing? And are they doing it for the "right" reasons. As for me I do have a family to support and I don't have very much support from those around me. I also want to finish school and can not do it while working a full time job and taking care of 3 small children by myself.
Truthfully I do think that this kind of thing is the best option. Its easy, fast, kind of a get rich quick scheme. And if you meet the right person... and make the right choices... you can be set for life, make your own investments and get the job of your dreams.

The search is exhausting at times but in the end I do think it is worth it.

Pots on the burner

I've been emailing back and forth with a few pots and am meeting one today. He is really rushing things I just hope that we both will be happy when all is said and done. ($$$)

This guy is an ex football player and now works for ESPN. Sounds like a winner according to him and his profile! He is about 10 min away from where I stay when I'm in NYC so I don't think I will ever have a problem when we are supposed to meet up.

We will see how this is going to work out.

Other than that, I did pay my sub to SA.com and the views are coming in!! They have doubled in just 3 short hours as opposed to the 5 long days since I created the profile. Yayy!!!


In other news.. my boyfriend at home has been trippin!! Hes all upset because I left town and took the car, which belongs to me by the way. He has to pay for rides to and from work. Oh well... You were doing it before so get over it.

I ended up going to 4040 last night which was ok. I had a good time even though I spent $18 on a Long Island iced tea!! OMG!! Can you say expensive! Where I'm from they are only $6 at the most, maybe $8 but thats the most you will ever pay for a drink! Man.... Oh well, at least there was no charge at the door...

One thing that I have to say about the women here, I mean no offense, not tryna hate but I am, yall look a HOT ASS MESS!!!! I mean damn where I'm from when females go to the club they at least get their hair done and put on a nice outfit. OMG! I'm sorry but 9 out of 10 women that I have seen since being here looked fucked up.....

I'm horrible... But I had to say it... I would never ever go to a club lookin like that, let alone walk down the street knowing that you are going to pass at least 100+ people before you get to your destination.... ughh.. Then there was this group of young girls who past by me and my friend, they looked a mess. One of them looked me up and down like she had a serious problem with how good I looked and then started talking shit after they past us. So is it really that serious?? Are you that mad that I look better then you and all your friends plus one?? ahahaha WOW...

Please excuse my bs.. I just had to vent... I just dont understand how so many people walk out of the house looking like that.. Women especially...

ok... I'm done. Lets get back to the sugar...
Muah!

Ahaha... Black Amex??

Why is there a guy on one of the sites with a pic of him and what appears to be a Black Amex... Um.. It looks like he colored it in with a marker... LMAO Maybe I'm mistaken.. :P HA!

I'm here!! lol

Ok so I didn't actually make it into the city last night until about 2am.. So missed the party. But truthfully after reading Goal Digger's blog about the last one I wasn't as enthusiastic about it... hehe oh well... (I love her blog!!)

Anyways, I decided to go ahead and pay my sub to sd.com and am speaking back and forth with pots. I want to see if I can get some to meet up with this weekend while I'm here. I want to pay my sub to sa.com also but I really hate the way that site is set up. ughh... I'm the kind of person who does things to be spiteful that's why I absolutely HATE working for other people... This site kind of makes it impossible for your profile to get any views unless your a paid member....

I AM NOT GETTING ANY VIEWS!!!!

This is crazy!! Before with my previous profiles I got tons of views and all I had to do was log in... This time, every time I log in I'm only getting 2-3 views at a time!! Now its not my pics or my profile not to be conceited but uh... I'm told I'm beautiful, gorgeous every day dude.. come on...

I have never had a paid membership there before and I think its about time. I just hate being kinda rushed into shit like that. :( Has anyone noticed a significant increase in views since paying for membership?? Let me know! Greatly appreciated!

About to commence mass emailing!!! :P

Headed to the city!!

So me and my bestie have been planning a trip to the city for about a month now. I have fam there and wanted to do some more sight seeing since I didn't get to see everything last time I was there. T has never been there before.

Since I just recently created a new profile on SA I came across a link for a sugar party!! OMG! I'm so excited! I was actually planning on leaving on thursday so I will make it there around 8 or 9pm that night. I hope that gives me enough time to mingle and meet some new potentials.

Other than that.. I really would like to go to some nice clubs and shake my ass. lol I like to dance. Can anyone who lives in NYC give me some ideas. And or if anyone wanted to meet up that would be fun also!! Hit me up!!

If anyone is going to the SA party I will see you there!! :D
Here is a link to the party!

I forgot to tell you all!!

Ok so one day I logged into YIM cause I was bored. I didn't msg any1 I just wanted to see who was online. I got an IM from Realdoc after not talking to him for months!! Started off ok, basically I didn't find what I was looking for and neither did he. He sounded a little frustrated about it. So I went along with the conversation just to see where he would take it. He asked if I wanted to try again, that I was the one out of them all that he liked the most. :/

I said I would have to think about it. The conversation then took an unexpected turn. He brought up the situation with the 3way that never happened because he didn't want to dish out any money. I mean come on! Its been months! I'm not still thinking about it! Why the hell are you?!?!? I politely ended the conversation and told him I would call....

Needless to say, I never did. But every time I log onto YIM he sends me a msg... Take a hint sir. Please! Last time he said: "HEY Bababbbbbayyyy" "are you looking for me??" "LOL"
Umm... No I wasn't. He got no response from me and I politely went invisible for the rest of the time I was logged in..

Stalker much??

I'm back!!

So everything in my life has come together. I have a good paying job, a house! Not an apartment... hehehee. My kids are happy and I have a good man!! OMG!!

I believe I have blogged about this guy before. HERE. And in a few other posts. He is the 21 year old. He is perfect. He has not done anything wrong at all yet. Its crazy. But I keep expecting for him to do something but I think he is madly in love with me and really does not want our relationship to end.

The thing about this situation is I really want to pursue my sugar daddy search... He lives with me now. How am I going to hide this part of my lifestyle? I told him so many times that I did not want a relationship but he just wouldn't let up!! I do really, really, really like him. Im a little torn cause I dont want to cheat on him.... Ughh..

What to do??

I am making a new profile on SA as we speak and then I'm going to try sugardaddie to see whats good after being gone for so long.

I'm going to NYC this weekend and want to at least meet someone while I'm there. ;)
Bye for now!

1 month

So I have been gone for exactly one month down to the day! I decided to come here just to post a little update. My life of shambles is finally starting to pull together. There have been so many changes for the better over the past month I am finally out of this rut that I have been in for so long.

In searching for a SD I have learned that it takes time to get what you want. I already knew that I would have to put in work for what I wanted, but what was holding me back was not myself. It was those around me. Sooooo....

I did some personal cleansing! I have cleared my life of all of those people around me that were so negative. All the people who tried their hardest to bring me down are now nothing to me and to my children. (and soon my sister!)

Things are so much easier now. People I don't even know are more willing to help than my own family and the father of my children. Why should I have those kind of people in my life. Family is nothing if this is the type of family you have.

I'd rather do it with my friends and on my own then to deal with Bullshit from the people who are SUPPOSED to take care of me.

Good Bye!

Hello!! To my new better life! And my sugar search will be starting back up soon enough!! I cant wait! Full speed ahead!! :D

3way...

So me and T finally had our 3way. We did it with this sexy ass guy that we have know for years. His dick was huge!

It was a little awkward for both me and T because it was our first time doing anything like that. We didn't really do anything with each other... surprisingly. We just both did it to him at the same time.

Next time some drinks are going to have to be involved so we can be a little more comfortable. We laughed at everything like a couple of little girls! LOL & he didn't make it any better making jokes..

It was fun and I am looking forward to doing it again! :P

OMG!! Go away!!

This guy just wont quit!!
He sent me a few messages talking about some... Deposit the money in my account and when it clears take my cut of $500 and send him the rest....

I have cut contact with this guy but he just keeps on going!! Leave me alone!!

Caligray, leave me alone..

I have not spoken to this fool since the last time I posted.. I came home from my trip and went through my mail...

I find a fedex package from California with my name on it... Hmmm..

Open it up and inside is a check..

for $3,550!!!

I am sooooooo tempted to deposit it in my account! But I know that it is a fake check....

Why, oh why does this guy have to be a scam artist... lol
Too bad, that money would look really good in my bank account.........

Good thing I am not as hard pressed for money as I was last month. I might have done something I might have regret. :P

In the shredder it goes!!

Salt mixed with sugar..

So I made my trip to the big city. I was only able to get in contact with one of my Pots because my laptop charger died! ughhh... FML!!!
I met him as soon as I got into the city and we had dinner at this cute little restaurant. The food was good. It wasn't 5 star but thats ok... We talked he asked a ton of questions, wanting to get to know me and what I stand for.

He then asked me "In an ideal situation, what would I want?" To which I reply, "I just want to be able to finish school without having to work a full time job."

From that point on I felt like this asshole was judging me! Yes I am a single mother. Yes at this point I am struggling. So what! I know what I want! I know how to get it! I'm going to do me and get where I need to be regardless if I have the help of a SD or not!

He kept telling me that my life was 'complicated'... In my opinion, it really is not as long as you don't make it. He then asks, "With school and children, what do I have to offer him?"

"What is it that you want?"

"Success"
..............

So are you saying that I am not going to be successful??? Are you serious?

I have been successful my whole life! Nothings going to change now! I just want to make things a little easier... I don't know and do not want to know what it means to be a failure!!

I know I should not take anything he or anyone else says seriously.. I just needed to vent a little. I had a long weekend. LOL The road trip is what did me in.. Other than that I had a Great time!!! :)

Oh yea.. and he then asks me to send him a email stating what I want and he will get back to me. Then asks if I had any bills that needed to be paid within the next few days. I said GAS!! and something else... Why we departed and he didn't even give me gas money... In Manhatten!!! I mean damn, with prices that high he could have at least gave me $20... Is that too much to ask..

I am thinking about sending him that email, but not feeling him at all. Seems too stuck up his ass, on a high horse for me. Oh, did I mention that he is a doctor, and a professor. You would think he would want to help out a student who is looking to go into the medical field. He told me I should think about going into nursing.. WTF!! I have the grades, I know my shit and I am not going to sell myself short for anyone!! EVER!!

Other than that I have not been able to get into contact with anyone else except for one guy. This one is 62, and I told him about myself and got a much better reaction from him as opposed to the guy above... He thinks I am '
amazing'... :) How sweet!

He said he will be back in town on the 22nd and we will meet then. I can't wait! He sounds like a winner! I wrote about him before.. I think. The one who poped up like *snap* that!

What should I name him...
Cant think of anything at the moment. Will get back to you! lol

Why you got to lie?

I paid for membership at sugardaddie.com finally and I am so glad that I did. I got some serious and really good pots on the burner and am setting up dates for this weekend. One guy wanted to meet up tonight!

So I did not really go into my plans. Remember the larger city near me when I went on craigslist. I am moving there in the near future. The end of this week I am going there to set some things up and to meet some of my pots! Yay!

I have 5 new ones so far. And OMG can this get confusing!! I am having a hard time keeping track of them all... I had to write notes on them all to keep things straight. Hopefully by meeting them in person I can be better at keeping track of what I have told to who. lol

Ok. So I have not been on messenger in a while and I singed on last night. First Realdoc sent me a msg, talking bout some lol.... What do you want?!? I mean for real! Then tried to hold a conversation. I had to ignore him..

At the very second I singed on Caligray sent me a msg. I responded and basically I flat out told him that I think he is a con artist! He begged and pleaded, tried to convince me that he wasn't. lol I said first if you are real, you told me you were going to send me some money. I have not received anything! He tried to BS his way around that. lol

Then I asked him if his company had a website. Tell me why this FOOL sent me non-existant web addresses!! And then gone say that the site is still under construction! LMAO!!

Why do people have to try to lie so much?!??!?!?

And to top it off!! Why did this FOOL say that he will send me the money he promised but he needed my credit card info........

O.o

WOW!! AHHAHahahaaaaaa......

Seriously??

Keep it moving!!

Now she has her hand out??

So I have been busy as all hell this week. Running around like crazy, right?? I have not had much time to really chat it up all day with Realdoc like I have been. I called him last night so that me and T could talk to him. He was happy to hear from us, but sounded like he wasn't feeling coming to meet up this weekend as planned. I assured him that it was his decision and that I was still very interested....

He said that he wanted to talk to me in more detail, so we would talk the next day, today. So I get on chat with him and he basicallly says that he does not want to dish out any money to T... Im like huh?? Where is this all coming from?? He's like its supposed to be about the experience and she has her hand out?? I'm not paying her to have a 3way with us...

WTF!?!?

Ok first of all... About the experience?? If it was all about the exoerience of having a 3way there is no way that we would choose an old ass small penis white man to do it with!! We can find someone much much Hotter, sexier, and YOUNGER to do it to!!

I told him that for a sugarbaby it is about the experience of being with someone who truly cares about your well being enough to take care of you in a way other men can't. But us as beautiful ass young women are not attracted to you alone. It is the money that makes the experience!! He said that does not make sense... LMAO! To a sugarbaby it does!!

We are young sexy and beautiful, you can provide to us. We both are getting what we want. He knew that if she was to be included she wanted to be chopped out also from the very first day!! He knew BOTH of our intentions from the very first day!! He was the one who asked me if I was bi and wanted a girl to join!! Why is it that all of a sudden you don't want to go through with what we agreed to the day before it is supposed to happen??

I think he may have just been scared to actually go through with it. Or just didn't have the money... So Realdoc.... Goodbye... It was nice while it lasted and thanks for paying my bill!! :P

Thought I'd give you a call.. :)

So I called Caligray and we chatted briefly... There was a ton of static in the background so we decided to continue the chat via IM. He asked how the kids were and everything. Then the conversation takes a kinda unexpected turn..

He asked me if it goes as far would I be open to marriage and having more children... I replied given the situation it all depends.

He wanted to know about my current income situation. I told him.. I have been working but would prefer not to anymore, at least not a full time job. He tells me that the check is in the mail and I will probably receive it in Monday. He then says that he will take care of me while he is still in Europe, sending whatever I need. Whether it be funds or anything!

Then for the second time he tells me about a payroll position that is open in his company. He gave me all the details I needed to know and then what info I needed to send in to apply for the job.

Now at this point I am still a bit skeptical and am thinking he better not ask for my SSN.. Cause any info that I feel is too personal I refuse to pass out. Not that he would really get anywhere with it. lol He just wanted the info I gave him previously name and address, age, sex. I figured why not. All this info you can find by google'n my name anyways or by looking in the phone book. :P Again what can he do with it. Hhmmm...

So after thinking about it I say, why not. I will know if there is any id theft because I have dealt with it before... (bitch stole my wallet a few yrs ago. Opened up a bunch of accounts and never paid on them)  So I send the email with my info stating that 'Caligray' referred me to this position. He said that he will be the one training me and that I would not have to go through any interviewing process. He will be taking care of everything! I will be starting this on monday!

An online job is exactly what I need right now and he says that I will only be working about 2-3 hr per day. And not every single day..

Please give your opinions on this!?!?
It just all sound too good to be true! What do you guys think? Should I continue to go along with it? Am i just being paranoid? :P

In my experience when something sounds too good to be true it usually is. Are things the same in the sugar world?? Oh goodness, living a life where a man will take care of all your needs and then some.. One could only dream..

I am going to pursue that dream and make it a reality!

As far as marrying a sugar daddy.. I see many are not very fond of the idea. As for myself, I am open to it as long as he is very good looking and just what I want in a man. I would not mind taking that plunge, but it would be a very long time until I would consider making that type of commitment.

Thoughts please ladies! ? !
:)

Takelia SB

Sign in and they will come!!

Don't you just love how when you haven't signed on for a while you finally do so and get tons of messages!! Love it!

More pots on the burner!! Stay tuned!!

Hhmmm...

I just got off of IM with the guy from cali whos in eurpoe.. Time to give him a name...

CaliGray

Now I was signed in as unavailabe cause I just wasn't feeling like talking to anyone at the moment. He pops up with a msg to me. Now I already expressed concerns about him being a scam artist. I am very skeptical about the things men say and do...

Every time I speak with him he asks me to get on webcam. I did the first time just so he could see my face but every other time I blew him off. This time I said my brother borrowed my laptop for school... Lies! lol Yea yea....

He says thats ok, then tells me that later on when he gets home he is going to send me the tracking numbers for the package that I am expecting....

O.o

What??

Hmmm... Could this guy actually be serious?? My instincts still tell me not to believe until I actually see something.. What do you think?

Oh how I would love for this guy to be real!! I tried pulling him up on google but he has a really common name so I could not really find him you know.. Maybe I should dig a little deeper.

I am going to try and keep his interests just to see what I can get out of this situation. How cool would this be! He is going to be in Europe for the next 2 months. If he is genuine I would sure love to meet him. He is a black man and very good looking according to his pics. Nicely built, strong body. Yum!

In his profile his income range is $4-500,000. Which is very good and around the minimum range I need in a SD. Single, 38, just what I am looking for! :P

Cross your fingers!

sugardaddie.com & my take on the sites I am on so far..

wow these people are great! lol

They are offering a one week package for only $6.99!

I have too many in my inbox to pass that up! And one guy who is certifiably REAL! He put a little TMI in his profile and pulling him up on google was way easy!

I wish they would at least let non-paying members read the emails.. I will never understand that. No wait I do! By not reading there is no way of catching email addys that some put in their first msg so there is no way to make a connection outside of dishing out some $$. :P

I think I will stay off of sd4me. I really think the guy on biz in europe was a scammer. Haven't heard from him since this morning. Maybe I'm being impatient. Yea right... All the time I was on there I have not met one guy who was real. SC would have been a good choice but truthfully I think the guy is in beginning stages of dementia. The way he kept repeating the same things over and over. How I had to tell him the same things over and over. Yea, the old age got to him. lol He's only 51... I have not called him. Don't know if I want to. Maybe I should just to see if he remembers me?? :P Don't think he can really keep all his sugar babies in track. lol

Seekingarrangement.com is most def a good site. I have met some real, easy google-able men there. The only issue is that a bunch were scared off by my stalker/hacker and the others had an issue with travel or just didn't interest me and were clearly a waste of time. ie. They had no $$. Its free for sugar babies but it would probably be wise to upgrade. I went through the lists and I could NOT find my profile at all! lol I only saw girls who were paying members on top of the lists.

I do have hundreds of views but truthfully don't know how I got so many. :P Maybe I will upgrade one day.

establishedmen.com is ok. There does not seem to be too many people on there. I have seem a ton from Canada. So if you are close to or in Canada you might want to check them out. It is free for sugar babies. Which is a huge plus. This is where, my luv for now, Realdoc found me. He is REAL! lol I read on someone elses blog a while ago that they think that some sites have fake profiles to increase and/or keep people paying for membership..

At first I felt that way about this site because this extremely HOT ex model white man sent me a few msgs.. Then all of a sudden poof! Another extremely HOT old white man msg'd me the next day. Then a few msgs later.. Guess what.. Poof!! From that point I thought this site is FAKE and ignored it for a while. Then I found my Realdoc. He is kinda hot :P... lol He is good looking and I am so happy I signed up there! :) Hey why not? It is free for us you know..

Once I actually decide to pull out my card for sugardaddie I will post what I think.

Top choice so far...
seekingarrangement.com

Top choice for wasting time
sugardaddyforme.com

Takelia SB

Yes!

My sugar daddy took care of me! Realdoc..
OMG! He paid my entire bill! I am happy...
*sigh*

So good to finally have a real sugar daddy. One who actually cares about me. I did have to kinda beg(not really) for him to give in. Maybe he just didn't want to spend any money before we actually met...
We will be getting together the weekend after next! Yay!! I can't wait to meet him!!

The other guy... I am suspecting that he might be on some scam type shit.

I spoke to him earlier today, he said he was going to call to check on the money he sent.... Ok

He asked if I had a credit card... Why would you need a credit card to send a check. No way I'm going to fall for that. I think I am going to open up a P.O. Box for this. Just in case I get people who actually want to send stuff. I didn't give him my address so, what can he do... All he can do is send something I guess. I wonder if this guy was for real though. I always stay ahead of the game. I run too much game to be played by someone else baby!

We will see how this plays out... & if it goes any further...

Will my sugardaddy...

Come through for me?? I am still uncomfortable asking people for money. I'm asking my doc that I met on establishedmen if he could help with this bill that is due today. He seems kinda hesitant but I am going to try and get him to give in to me. He said that I am his number 1 girl anyway so why wouldn't you want to help me out.

I have to give him a name.... hmmm

RealDoc

lol good enough

I really like him alot too. We chat everyday for hours. He has quite an imagination. And I am actually looking forward to fucking this old ass white man. lol Me and T are going to have our 3way with him. He also asked me if I like white girls. Now I have never been with a girl before. I am extremely bicurious.. I get turned on by women all the time.

Women are beautiful and I have been fantasizing about eating pussy for a long time. I have been thinking about this and I really want me a cute little white girl. The one he is chatting with is 4'11', brown hair, blue eyes. I cant wait to get me some of that... lol I sound like a man. :P

Could I actually be getting what I want??

Is this foreal?? Am I high or something??
OMG...

So yesterday I got a msg from this guy. The one who is in Europe on business.. We chatted via IM for a bit. I liked him.. He liked me. He thinks I'm beautiful. I got on webcam for him briefly so he could see that I was real.

We chatted again today and he said he was thinking about me and wanted to send me some money.. I'm like ok.. But I'm secretly dancing on the inside!

He then proceded to ask me if I could email him my ring, shoe, pant, and dress sizes. FOR ME AND MY THREE CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.............

I was extatic! I screamed and threw my fists in the air!! OMG!
O.O

I have never imagined I would actually meet anyone who would do something like that for me! The money is supposed to be fedex'd overnight to me. So I should have it by the morning! I hope I hope I hope!! I am behind on something that is due tomorrow!! It is imperrative for that to be paid ASAP!

OMG I hope that this man is real and that I do receive what he says he is giving. I believe that good people do receive what they need when they least expect it. I have been a good girl my whole life. Despite that my family treats me like shit. The people who are supposed to love me dog me out like no other.

I am the one child that my parents should be most proud of. I am one year away from recieving my Bachelors degree in Biology yet they treat me like I am a highschool drop out. I have always been treated worst than a step child by both my parents. They neglect the fact that I have always gotten A's in school. Everyone else that they do not talk down about me to acknowledges my achivements. I have been in jail one time. My father put me there....

My mother used to call me a whore and a slut which started when I was in 6th grade... Obviously I was still a virgin, not even thinking about looking at boys. My father has always had money, yet he would go shopping for me one time a year to the cheapest stores and refused to spend over $60.

I have a scar across my forehead that my mother put there. Basically for no reason whatsoever. She lost her phone and blamed it on me. Bashed my for head with a huge metal thing. I had to get stitches. Luckily it is barely noticeable now.

Aside from my immediate family... The father of my children was abusive to me also. Which is why I am now a single mother of 3. He gave me a black eye when I was 6 months pregnant with his daughter.. He does not help at all. Man I can sure pick em right?

I have dealt with so much in my life with my family what I have shared here is nothing. I can tell stories forever. In fact I tried to create a blog about nothing but my life. I never finished or continued the blog because there was just so much to type up. I was left crying after every post.

Aside from my family and the father of my children I have never EVER come across anyone who treated me so badly. Every one loves me! Every man that I have been in a relationship falls in love fast and does not want to let me go. I am single by choice. I prefer it that way. This way I do not get hurt and I don't hurt anyone else. Even though I kinda feel like I am hurting these guys by continuously turning them down... Oh well. I'm sorry.

This is why I chose the sugar lifestyle. I want more out of life and just need a little help to get ahead. I have plans. I want to start a business. I have everything all planned out. I am leaving this sad little city that I live in and am moving to a much larger better place. Having a succesful rich man take care of my need financially is great but I also need someone who can guide me, teach me, and show me what I need to succeed! I have high ambitions and dreams and there is no way that I am not going to achieve them. Nothing is going to stop me from getting what I want in this life.


I will post more later....
:)

Met a few more..

Got a few more pots on the burner. One lives in Cali but is on business in Europe. How fun!
I miss my 21 yro. I need to give him a initail.. J
I haven't seen him since I left for funky Florida..
He is spending the night with me on Fri... I can't wait! :) hehee