The date...

Yea, so me and Mr. TEP went on our second date. Great time. He makes me laugh and I really enjoy spending time with him. I drove out to meet him. It was late so we went to a bar and got a drink and some food.

It was funny that as we were ordering our drinks the waiter was winking at me and trying to get my attention while my date was sitting right there. I thought that was hilarious! We talked for about 2 hours and then he drove me to the beach.

Mind you it was kinda in the middle of no where I had no way of knowing where I was and how to get back to my car which was parked up waiting for me to come back. Bad things kept flashing in my mind. You always hear those stories about a young woman getting murdered and left on the side of the road... I tried not to think that way. I had my pepper spray and I do know how to fight having been in an abusive relationship... Gosh, I couldnt live out there at all myself. I dont care how nice the houses are. ughh...

Anyways...

We got to the beach and we kissed and cuddled. He told me he didnt want to move too fast just yet. I dont know if I was relieved or disappointed by that. lol After our romantic time together we went back to my car, he gave me $200 and filled up my gas tank and I was on my way home.

Truthfully, I am ready to make this more serious. Lets establish a monthly allowance already!! Sheesh!! haha!

Taking things slow...

I dont know if I can claim that Mr. TEP is actually my SD as of yet. But we are currently working on what this is going to be. So far he has told me that all my expenses are going to be covered as I finish school. He wants to take things slow as far as the physical aspect of the relationship goes.

We are supposed to be looking at Apts together for me next week... We will see about that. Plus I'm still looking have not found what I'm looking for just yet. He also wants to go over my college transcripts to help me get into the right school. How sweet. :P

We have only met twice so far, and have been speaking for months. The relationship is definitely blossoming. I like him a lot as a person and I know he likes me. He has told me so many times. :)

Right now it seems to me that he may be the real deal. He has been nothing but a gentleman the entire time I've known him. You know how you meet some of these people and just know right off that they are looking for only one thing... Sex is all that is on their minds. With this guy, I have not felt that in any way! Surprising, to me at least.

I think that this just may be what I have been looking for. Just maybe...


One thing that I think I will never get used to..

Stubble. It feels like my skin was being scraped by sandpaper when I kissed him. So not used to that, an I really dont like it. Keep that shit smooth, please! or grow a goatee... My lips still hurt. :P

The Perfect Sugar Daddy

So I wrote out this whole post on how I think I may have fotnd the Prefect SD... But something happened and it got erased when I hit publish. ughh.. Oh well! There is nothing set in stone yet but I will give all the details after our meeting in the beginning of the week.

Oh yea, dont you just love how things can just be sitting there staring you in the face and you never think about them or dont seriously pursue them until way later. To think I have wasted all these months and Mr. TEP could actually be the one. yea yea...




Aside from that, after my usual blog stalking I want to say that the SB blogger community should support one another. Everyone goes through tough times and nothing that we say about it is going to change that. We can't always walk in eachothers shoes and judging someone's life based on a few words written in a simple online blog/journal is not productive.

I myself have come across so many obstacles in my life and absoultely nothing that anyone had to say helped me one bit. I had to take it upon myself to ignore everyone's opinion of how I was living MY life and do everything that I could so that things would not be forever fucked up.

Also, whatever opinions someone had about me based on what I wrote online.. Please! Seriously, go to hell because I have never told my whole life story anywhere online. Not refering to this particular blog... But its funny how people assume they know everything that goes on in someones life based on one or two blog posts or a video, ect...

I guarantee you that there is much much more to the story.

All that to say, dont judge when you dont know the entire story first of all. You just make an ass of yourself in the end. I hate judgemental people.. ughh..

Secondly, when you find yourself in a bad place in life, please do not focus on the negative. Always have a backup plan. Always continue to plan and work towards your future. Time will never stand still and sitting around and waiting for something to happen will just make things worse. Bills will only pile up, the longer you wait the more you will owe.


Ok, enough of the self help crap!! Its time to potty train my baby!! Hes pulling off his doody diaper!!! Eeewwww.........

Wish me luck on that one... :P

TakeliaSB

Chemistry...

So I've been taking care of business and have not done much as far as my sugar search goes. Have not spoken to any pots in a while but, shit I gotta handle my shit first before I can put myself into any type of relationship. You know.

Recently I began msging back and forth with this guy and I could tell what he wanted from the beginning. So we met tonight for drinks...

At the end of the 'date' he says to me, you are a beautiful girl but, he does not think that we have chemistry. ok...

Sometime I just don't get what that means. I made it clear that I was not looking for anything long term. Maybe just a few rolls in the sack some $$$ in my pocket and that would be it.

He was obviously attracted to me, kept touching my leg inching closer & closer, kissed me a few times on the cheek. Maybe it was the fact that he could tell that I was not attracted to him. Err uhh... I need to learn to hide my disgust sometimes.. lmao!

But seriously! I understand the need for chemistry if you are looking for a long term sugar relationship, but if you are merely looking for a quick fuck what the fuck does chemistry have to do with it. I can fake my way through anything if I have to. The last one didn't notice one bit!!

This is why I'm still contemplating escorting... That shit is so annoying to me. Maybe I should hold off on the sugar for a little while and come back when I'm not so.... distracted... disgusted... idk lol I'll figure it out.