How fun is this! Dropping like flies!! lol

The cutie from the few previous posts. He emails me again today asking to hook up sometime this week and after speaking to him and having him completely avoid the arrangement aspect I send him a reply:

In a nutshell, I said:

I cant help but to point out that the most important part of our arrangement has been completely ignored and although I would love to suck your dick until you cum all over me I can not move forward until we come to some sort of agreement.

lol

He replied back asking what I was asking. When I told him, he goes, "Wow, Thats a little high!"
(I said 4k)
To which I replied that we could negotiate and he was very reluctant to do so. Said at this point he was not really looking to pay for it.

Another AM guy who agrees to an arrangement before we meet and then when it comes down to it he falters.. What is it with guys from this site?? They all ask what an arrangement is, when you tell them they say yes, but then they turn around and act like they never heard of such a thing before.

I really wanted to fuck him too. He was sexy, really sexy. :( Oh well... lol

So, I opened a new profile on EM and I have a few offers from a few guys. That website seems so dead to me.

Truthfully I am really bored with the online dating thing and am so ready to go freestyling. Ill go by myself if I have to, Dammit! lol #Determined
:P

I think I may have a problem...

Ok this is weird. Yesterday I txt a few of my pots, I was super bored. I didn't get any answers back. So I'm sitting here wondering, did I like fuck it up with all of them and not know it?? Weird, right?

So today, I start getting messages responding to the msgs I sent yesterday!! What the hell???

I think there is something seriously wrong with my phone or something. This is not good!!

I have been so bored with my pots lately. They all work non-stop. Mr. Travel has only had like 2 days each week where he is actually in town! I really would like to see him soon but I'm thinking I'm going to end up dropping him because he is just never around! Where is your time for me? Oh well.

On to the next.

Mr. Euro is so Blah, so Bland. Its hard to talk to someone who gives nothing but vague, one word answers. I'm going to give him until my birthday, if he does not agree to my terms by then, I will kick him to the curb as well. My b-day is in 2.5 weeks.

I told him already when it is and he actually seemed excited and it kind of sounded like hes the type of guy to shower his girls with gifts. He has a little girl who's birthday just past. We will see how that goes. This is going to be a test for me to see if I can actually remember him. When guys are boring like that, they literally fall off the face of the earth in my mind. LMAO

I want to go out freestyling. I need some excitement.

I have never done it before, but I have a feeling that it might be easier to make a connection with someone that way as opposed to creating a fake relationship via email. NYC is full of pots and plus I know where some ballers like to hang out as well. Not quite sure if I really would spend time with one but I do know that they take care of theirs.

I know a girl who dated one last year and he took her everywhere! Shopping trips, paid all of her bills. That is what I want. Me, I would go for the ugly one. Never the cutest one. The ego there is way to big for any type of relationship for me.

Plus ugly guys will do anything for a beautiful woman! They worship the ground you walk on, and that is what I like. I'm not about chasing a man.

I gotta see whats good with my phone though. I just don't see how people are just now getting my msgs when they should have been sent through yesterday. And if they really are just taking that fucking long to answer me back, I have a problem with that.

We will see.

FaceBook

I finally went ahead and made a facebook page. Add me if you read my blog. :)

Mr. Euro

The Newbie from the last post I'm going to name him Mr. Euro. I am not completely sure about this guy. He had a heavy accent, medium build, a little over 6 foot.

We had dinner, which was very good, but I didn't feel any type of connection. I'm not sure how to explain this. I'm not usually nervous when meeting someone but this time I was really nervous. It was because the entire time I tried to make conversation without a lot of feedback and he kept this stern look on his face.

I had a few glasses of wine and asked him when he was going to relax! He said it was because of the long work day. Things did lighten up and we had sort of a good conversation. I came to realize that this is just how he is.

I couldn't tell if he liked me or not. Plus the entire time he kept taking phone calls!

So after we finished we walked back to his beautiful BMW and got in. I asked him what he thought and told him he was very hard to read. Surprisingly, he said he "really enjoyed our date" and wants to see me again on Friday. He then talked about taking me with him on his next business trip.

Thing is this, I have found it a little hard in the past to talk to European men. They don't really seem to understand things. Especially American concepts. So when I went into the arrangement thing he says that he had a girl in the past that he took care of but he did it "because he wanted to", not because it was required. And if we went that far he wants to want to take care of me. He wants to "get to know me better." He said once we got to know each other better I would be very happy and would want for nothing.

That annoyed the fuck out of me because basically he was saying he wanted to fuck me a few times first before he dishes out any dough!!! He doesn't want it to be a "business transaction"... He wants to develop a relationship before he agrees to the arrangement.

Damn Europeans... lol

At this point, I am debating on if I want to continue with him or not. The only reason I have not ruled him out completely is this guys money. I know already that he can take care of whatever it is that I want.

Should I? or Shouldn't I?

I wonder how long he can wait for me to give it up. I can be a huge tease, leave him wanting more and more. I made it clear that nothing intimate was going to happen until I got what I wanted.




The other date I had I blew off. It was with the cute guy from the last post. Im not sure about him either. I don't think he knows what an arrangement is. When we first met I didn't have a lot of time and when we were supposed to meet yesterday I thought we were going to chat in depth about it.

But then he txt me the address to some hotel and never made mention of an allowance...

No fucking way. Who knows if he had a gift or whatever waiting for me or not but thats not what I want.

What is this?? Nothing comes free here!! You want to make love to a beautiful woman you have to work for it one way or another.

I will say the one who finally gives me what I want will be in for something serious. How long will I have to wait? These guys just don't know.

Molding a Newbie

So my AM profile clearly states and I am looking for an "arrangement" and a "sugar daddy", right?

I had a guy send me a msg and the vibe that I got from him and his profile was purely fuck buddy. So, I immediately sent him a message saying we are not looking for the same thing. I guess he read my profile over and he then sent me another message saying "oh your looking for a sugar daddy" I can do that!

Oh! Ok..

So many messages later we decided to set up a date, but before we did that I had to explain what I was looking for in depth because he just never got it...

He already told me what he does so I know that he would have no problem what so ever giving me what I want, he just never understood what an arrangement actually was.

I tried to explain to him what I wanted and basically mold him into the holy grail monthly allowance sugar daddy. At first he talks about not wanting it to feel like a transaction. No shit! That is why it is monthly and not like p4p or a ton of gifts or whatever. Once he really felt what I was saying he was like...

Ooohhhhhh! Yes, I would love to be that for you!

Why does it take so long for some of these guys to understand what this is. It is a very simple concept, I think. Sometimes I don't have the patience.

Take care of me, I will make you happy. Very simple.

I myself am surprisingly not really into gifts. Not that I am picky but every time a man has bought me something that I didn't help pick out, I hated it. The last guy who bought me a piece of jewelry bought something that my grandmother probably wouldn't even wear! Its was horrible! I cant even tell you what he was thinking when he bought it.

Don't buy me things. Just give me that cash, please. ;)

I have 2 dates tomorrow. I really need to stop grouping 2-3 dates in one day and try to spread them out, lol. My schedule has been crazy, seeing guys every couple of days is exhausting. Plus I have to get back to answering messages on AM. Every time I log on I get flooded with new messages.. god! Can I get a secretary who can set up my dates for me??

Do you want to be an escort?- Being Outed

Ok. I wanted to post a few things about starting out as an escort and also about being outed to friends and family.

I'm going to start with being outed. When I first decided to do this the only person in my life who knew about it was my best friend who I have known for 12 years. I am the type of person who doesn't really care what people have to say about me. People have been talking about me my whole life.

In grammar school all the ugly girls who had no hair would gang up on me and pick at my clothes, shoes, and hair, whatever they could think of. I wasn't a bummy kid, they were just jealous because the cutest boy in our grade had a crush on me. When I got to high school it was crazy with rumors about me. I was a virgin, but so many people went around saying they fucked me, ran the train on me, all kinds of crap. This one boy used to dog me all the time and I asked my friend to ask him why he didn't like me and he goes "because she out giving mad head, but she never sucked my dick!" Again, I was a virgin... People I never even met before were even going around saying they fucked me!

So this goes to show that I am very used to people having my name in their mouth. I can only attribute this to my looks, because I am the nicest, most honest person I know. I keep those around me happy and laughing, or at least try to. It was not my attitude that made people hate on me, because I never had one.

I never understood this until later in life. Women are threatened by those with confidence and good looks.

About a year ago, the husband of someone in my family pulled up my website and obviously he liked it because he then told all of his friends. It was my fault he found it, because I was not very careful with hiding it. Oh well..

Now my pictures were password protected so he and his friends signed up for my site and I wouldn't be surprised if any of his friends actually screened and came to see me. I knew nothing about this until recently.

He told his wife, who in turn told everyone else! I had no problems with her but I feel like she was mad at me because her husband was getting off on my nude pics. Not my fault! He is a piece of shit and a DOG to sit there and look at me this way. He even made a few heavy passes at me as if I was going to give up the pussy to him. Fucking crazy!

But since then, I have had people saying things to me (but mostly behind my back) like:
"Oh, I cant believe you would stoop so low"
"how could you do something like that"
"Whore", "Slut"
"you obviously don't care about yourself or your children"
"you must be trying to fill some void in your life"
"you have made a terrible choice that is going to follow you the rest of your life"
"you will never find a good man" (LMAO), "don't you want to get married?"
"do these men make you feel better about yourself?"
"you must have really low self esteem"
"were you abused as a child?"
All kinds of bullshit.

The people who say those kinds of things I don't hang around at all. Not even my parents. Which they had a funny reaction to it. I said before that people always think the worse when they hear "escort", "prostitute" or whatever.
My mom was sitting there talking about, "Oh I cant believe my baby girl would do something like this! I cant believe this!" Freaking out!
But when she heard how much money I was making and the kind of business I was running and men I was seeing she goes- "Oh... ok well that's not too bad... I feel better now"

That was TOO funny to me!

She must have thought I was a street walker!

Since then whenever I am around anyone I feel like I have to pretend that I am ashamed of what I did(do). lol. When they bring it up I just listen to them preach about how I made a bad choice and I shouldn't have been "out there" like that. I dare not say a word because it will obviously turn into a huge argument! But truthfully I am happy to have it out because now I don't have to sneak around, I don't tell them if I still see clients though obviously.

I have also had some people come to me and act like they want to take the mother role for me!! I have a fucking mother! I don't need anyone to come and tell me things and mold and guide me! That's bullshit. I get that a lot also because I look like I am 17, people always treat me like a fucking kid.

Its frustrating sometimes because I always feel like I have to prove myself when I meet certain people and that is not how I like to live my life. Which is why I don't really hang around a lot of females who do not already know me. I prefer the company of older men. I don't like judgmental people.

Any ways, being outed was not fun and even though I am cool with it, I could have been a little better at hiding my website but this asshole shouldn't have been in my stuff like that anyway. He was a dirty fucking dog and I cant stand men who think they can fuck the one in the next room!

That is what escorts and sugarbabies are for!!

Keep your dick out of your family members!

Blood relatives or not, its disgusting!! And I don't know what made him think that I would ever be interested in him, like I don't know how to handle men or myself for that matter. Please!

I now keep the passwords and locks on the computers and cell phones at all times. :)

Meeting new ones

The other night I met Mr. IvyLeague. He is a great guy, a little older than I thought he would be, but that's ok. We had an incredible connection and talked for hours. He was very honest about everything, which I really appreciate. I think I may have found my match. Only problem is I don't think I will be getting exactly what I want right away. I can live with that. So in due time, we will see how things play out over the next few weeks.

I also met another guy, much younger and very cute. He wants to start our arrangement right away and we will be meeting again next week to discuss things further. I didn't have much time to chat with him, but I am happy that I met him. I was going to write him off, but decided to give him a chance.

Other than that, I still have a bunch of guys I have been emailing back and forth who I need to meet, and I'm still talking with the other 2 guys that I have already met.

I don't know what it is about meeting someone new. I love it. Some of the guys I have met would send me the most annoying emails or ask completely inappropriate questions. But when I meet them in person I am pleasantly surprised.

I think I have been in a bad mood lately and I am trying to get out of it. I think some great sex would do the trick. Surprisingly enough I have not had sex since Dec. Craziness!! But I am not going to give it up to any of these guys till I get what I want.

Family drama continues. I really do not like it but right now I have to put up with it. :( Give me strength. I have been through enough!

The Guys. An Update.

I had to let Mr. Jewmedown go. Its not right to enter a sugar type of relationship if you are not cool with helping your sugarbaby out the way she needs. If everytime I tell you what I need financially, you try to negotiate with me then its time to go. I refuse to deal.
He did give me a couple hundred and we never did anything physically so it wasnt all bad, but my time and body is not up for negotiation.

The Black guy I am going to name him Mr. Travel. This guy is ALWAYS out of town! Thing is I really like him and want to spend more time with him but he is always flying somewhere. I think I am going to suggest to him to bring me along on some of his trips. That would be fun and I would finally get to fuck his brains out. lol

The Irish guy, Im going to call Mr. Mentor. He is a great guy but I'm not sure if this is going to go the way we had originally planned, but I do plan to keep him as a mentor and possibly an investor. He is very sweet.

I never talked in depth about how that was supposed to work with him. Well, Mr. Mentor is happily married and has a sugarbaby girlfriend for a couple years. What he was looking for was a second girlfriend. Very have the cake and eat it type of guy. Thing is this guys relationship with the SB girlfriend in my opinion is way too deep. When we met she talked a great deal about how much she was in love with him, blah blah. She is my age, he is in his 60s.

In the end, she was uncomfortable moving forward. I am still in touch with him and its not that big of a deal for me. But I think that their relationship will end up crashing and burning. Reason being, she is all about him. She doesnt see anyone else and he sees other women all the time. The age difference is crazy and I dont think that she should be as infatuated with him as she is.

He obviously wants more than just her and he is trying to make her happy, in the end he is a man and when he does not get what he wants then he will move to the next one. lol And when that happens I will be right there!

I have a few others that I am really interested in. One guy in his 50s but very cute. Very Richard Gere. I am meeting him next week at a very prestigious club in the city. I'm going to have to go shopping for that, need to get a nice button down and form fitting pencil skirt. Im going to call him Mr. IvyLeague.

The other guys Im talking to at this point are nothing to write home about. Lets just hope that I find the kind of guy I am looking for. I have a great feeling about Mr. IvyLeague though and am crossing my fingers!

When guys call from home!!

OMG so this guy just called my escort line looking for a date. The only reason I called him back was because I saw his number several times before and would always miss the call.

When I called back a woman answered the phone. At first I froze and wasnt sure because she had kind of a deep voice. I asked if someone just called me and she gave me a confused "nooooo"

I then said "oh Im sorry I must have the wrong number"

Why the hell would a client be calling me from home!!!

Guys go to the store and get a little prepaid throw away phone! Pay cash! and dont register it with your real name and address!!!!

I hope I dont cause any issues for him by calling back. I do not make that a practice myself, but some girls always call back!!

Think guys! Think!!