Ok. I wanted to post a few things about starting out as an escort and also about being outed to friends and family.
I'm going to start with being outed. When I first decided to do this the only person in my life who knew about it was my best friend who I have known for 12 years. I am the type of person who doesn't really care what people have to say about me. People have been talking about me my whole life.
In grammar school all the ugly girls who had no hair would gang up on me and pick at my clothes, shoes, and hair, whatever they could think of. I wasn't a bummy kid, they were just jealous because the cutest boy in our grade had a crush on me. When I got to high school it was crazy with rumors about me. I was a virgin, but so many people went around saying they fucked me, ran the train on me, all kinds of crap. This one boy used to dog me all the time and I asked my friend to ask him why he didn't like me and he goes "because she out giving mad head, but she never sucked my dick!" Again, I was a virgin... People I never even met before were even going around saying they fucked me!
So this goes to show that I am very used to people having my name in their mouth. I can only attribute this to my looks, because I am the nicest, most honest person I know. I keep those around me happy and laughing, or at least try to. It was not my attitude that made people hate on me, because I never had one.
I never understood this until later in life. Women are threatened by those with confidence and good looks.
About a year ago, the husband of someone in my family pulled up my website and obviously he liked it because he then told all of his friends. It was my fault he found it, because I was not very careful with hiding it. Oh well..
Now my pictures were password protected so he and his friends signed up for my site and I wouldn't be surprised if any of his friends actually screened and came to see me. I knew nothing about this until recently.
He told his wife, who in turn told everyone else! I had no problems with her but I feel like she was mad at me because her husband was getting off on my nude pics. Not my fault! He is a piece of shit and a DOG to sit there and look at me this way. He even made a few heavy passes at me as if I was going to give up the pussy to him. Fucking crazy!
But since then, I have had people saying things to me (but mostly behind my back) like:
"Oh, I cant believe you would stoop so low"
"how could you do something like that"
"Whore", "Slut"
"you obviously don't care about yourself or your children"
"you must be trying to fill some void in your life"
"you have made a terrible choice that is going to follow you the rest of your life"
"you will never find a good man" (LMAO), "don't you want to get married?"
"do these men make you feel better about yourself?"
"you must have really low self esteem"
"were you abused as a child?"
All kinds of bullshit.
The people who say those kinds of things I don't hang around at all. Not even my parents. Which they had a funny reaction to it. I said before that people always think the worse when they hear "escort", "prostitute" or whatever.
My mom was sitting there talking about, "Oh I cant believe my baby girl would do something like this! I cant believe this!" Freaking out!
But when she heard how much money I was making and the kind of business I was running and men I was seeing she goes- "Oh... ok well that's not too bad... I feel better now"
That was TOO funny to me!
She must have thought I was a street walker!
Since then whenever I am around anyone I feel like I have to pretend that I am ashamed of what I did(do). lol. When they bring it up I just listen to them preach about how I made a bad choice and I shouldn't have been "out there" like that. I dare not say a word because it will obviously turn into a huge argument! But truthfully I am happy to have it out because now I don't have to sneak around, I don't tell them if I still see clients though obviously.
I have also had some people come to me and act like they want to take the mother role for me!! I have a fucking mother! I don't need anyone to come and tell me things and mold and guide me! That's bullshit. I get that a lot also because I look like I am 17, people always treat me like a fucking kid.
Its frustrating sometimes because I always feel like I have to prove myself when I meet certain people and that is not how I like to live my life. Which is why I don't really hang around a lot of females who do not already know me. I prefer the company of older men. I don't like judgmental people.
Any ways, being outed was not fun and even though I am cool with it, I could have been a little better at hiding my website but this asshole shouldn't have been in my stuff like that anyway. He was a dirty fucking dog and I cant stand men who think they can fuck the one in the next room!
That is what escorts and sugarbabies are for!!
Keep your dick out of your family members!
Blood relatives or not, its disgusting!! And I don't know what made him think that I would ever be interested in him, like I don't know how to handle men or myself for that matter. Please!
I now keep the passwords and locks on the computers and cell phones at all times. :)
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