Swallow it??

So, one of my clients asked.. or rather told me he wanted me to swallow.

There is no way in hell that he will be getting what he wants!!

Yes, you are a client. You are paying for my services.. but that does not dictate what services you shall recieve!

I do not think i will be seeing him anymore.

Im the one calling the shots! Im the one who is going to tell you what is going to happen during the time that you have booked with me.

Yes you are paying for my services but you are paying for the services that i have available!! Not just any disgusting request that you may have!

When i first went into this i knew what i wanted, i knew what i was willing to do and what i wasnt. I have changed quite a few things as i have learned more and more about the business.

I have my rules and set boundaries and sometimes the line can be crossed very easily. At this point in time i may have gotten a little too comfortable, but this particular client has snapped me back to reality...

When going into something like this whether it is being a sb or an escort, you have to stick to your rules. The very second you let your guard down and let things go people will try their hardest to take advantage of you!

They will push your buttons to see what all they can get away with. And they will try their hardest too!

As strange as it may seem, i have even met with clients who insisted on having sex without a condom!!  On what planet would a man think that it is ok to have unprotected sex with a woman who clearly has multiple sex partners!!!! Let alone have unprotected sex with a hooker!?!!? WTF is wrong with these people???

Not saying that all hookers have STIs. But still. You never know... any woman who has multiple sex partners needs to be tested regularly. But we all know that not everyone does. Its not a perfect world, you know...

People must seriously not understand what an STI is... or how one can aquire them...

Now I do offer bbbj as part of the GFE. But that is my choice. Having a medical background, I know what to look for. It iritates me to see how uneducated so many people are about sex and safe sex.

Someone posted on one of the boards that you can NOT get an STI from oral sex...

Can you say STUPID, UNEDUCATED, FOOLISH, did i say stupid...

Who knows if these guys even go to the doctor regularly to get checked out after unprotected sex.. by the way i see it probably not.

I feel sorry for some of these people and their spouses.

Never do anything that you dont want to do. Remember these men are strangers, do not do them any favors. Money is never a good enough reason to cross your boundaries.

They dont always realize the risk that we are taking by seeing them.

Set your limits and stick to them!!

Youd be suprised how ignorant people can be these days...

By the hour...

As a low volume escort I am booked by the hour.
As a sugar baby I go to visit and have a good time, I dont worry about the clock.

But as an escort I often 'forget' that I am booked by the hour... Call me a fucking fool but one of my 'dates' lasted a little over 3 hrs!! He did tip but he didn't actually pay my full rate. We were having such a good time I never thought twice about it and now this client is a regular of mine. We see each other every week sometimes 2x per week. Have a few drinks, talk, laugh, and briefly have sex. He gives me a gift every single time he sees me. Gotta love that!

I dont worry about the money so much mostly because A) I am used to older men B) we have fantastic chemistry C) I am low volume so I only see a few guys a week.. If that! So its not like I have to rush out the door because I have another client an hour or 2 after him... & D) Money is not a HUGE issue to me anymore.

Its kind of like an arrangement.. I like it. But I really should stop doing it. I definitely cant do it with everyone!!

So what I think I will do is turn this regular into an arrangement. I updated my website to include that I am offering long term arrangements. Next time I see him I will ask him how he feels about it and if he would prefer it, fantastic! After a while, when I am more established, I plan to have a minimum of 2 hrs for established clients. New clients will only get 1 hr just in case there is no chemistry. That way I wont always be wondering what time I actually got there! lol That hr. goes by really fast!

Thats why I dont get the girls who offer 1/2hr and 15min appts. WTF are you going to do in so little time?? I like to fuck and 15 min is not enough... Maybe just a blowjob... But I dont know if I could ever get used to having sex and running out the door just like that. Unless I really hated the guy.

IDK. Maybe I am a bad hooker. Or maybe its the fact that I have had some really great clients so far. No bad experiences just yet. But shit my business is doing great! lol..

As long as the money keeps rolling I'm good.

That brings me to another subject. When I first began putting my ads out there I was not getting any clients. I thought that maybe I should lower my rates so that guys would book with me because quite a few of them stated that my rate was 'way too high for someone with no reviews.' But I stuck to it. I did make some changes, but my rates stayed the same.

Never lower your rates unless you just don't care who you see. By me keeping my rates around the higher end I am getting clients who are clean, very nice respectable men. The guys who I have seen so far are better then most of the fake SD's that I have found out there.

I had this one guy ask me my rate last week. I told him and sent him a link to my site previously.. He then says, "oh I only have $200... is that enough?" Hell Fuck NO!! Guys like that get no respect because they have no respect. You should not be even asking me what my rate is! As my client it is your job to read over my website so that you already know all you need to know about me!!

Needless to say he got his feelings hurt..

The one thing I love most...

About NYC is the fact that when I go out with someone who is old enough to be my father...(or grandfather) I don't get those weird stares! I remember always feeling like I had to look over my shoulder and wonder what they thought about me with this guy.

But here I get nothing but smiles and friendly people. I guess maybe because so many people are into this lifestyle, people are used to it.

Aside from that.. I think I actually prefer escorting to finding a SD.. It is way more expensive to escort and there's so much competition but, I prefer knowing what we are both there for. And when the time is up we both go about our business with no worries. As a SB I love the idea of stability but I have yet to find the ideal SD relationship. It gets exhausting after a while. I love meeting some of these people but there are way too many time wasters and bullshitter's out there.

And some of the guys want a real relationship. That has caused me to cut quite a few of them loose.

Sex & money, that's all I want. Call me a gold digger, I be that! Call me a hooker, I be that too!!

Shit, I'm happy.

I'm too good...

Im so good at what I do, he fell in love the very first day, dude.... He saw me 2 days in a row. Shit I was happy cuz of the $$$$ but I cant go there.. I cant do it. He said he wants to see me a lot and if I ever need anything just call him.


I think I will continue to see him, but there has to be some boundaries.

To clear up, he is a client. Not a SD... Maybe I can turn him into an SD.. But I probably shouldnt..

Oh well.

Side note: Do Not get Drunk with your clients!! No matter how much of a good time you are having. It clouds your judgment and makes your client fall for you..

Daddy still loves me.. But...

So after a few months of no contact with who was my fave Mr. TEP I received a call out of the blue. He wanted to see me. I said ok fine, he was good for giving me a couple hundred every time I see him no sex involved... Not ideal but do able.

I went to see him and I was actually looking for sex... I hadn't been with him before and I really do like him as a person... Not to mention the fact that we have known each other for over a year now. So i figure why not...

This is the funny part.. Surprisingly I did not get what I wanted. It was the same thing that happened last time in this post He left satisfied meaning he came.. But I didnt do much.. Meaning I didnt do anything to make him come..

Ok.. so it started like this. We kissed, I stripped he didnt.. I started to take off his clothes but only got his pants off.. He dry humped my naked body till he came in hi pants...

IDK what to think about that.. I was debating on posting this but its baffling!! I have never seen anything like it in my entire life!

He didnt want me to even suck him off.. He kept mashing the side of his head into my face, he was so rough with me and my delicate pussy, I didnt know what to do.. He didnt hurt me. It was just weird.

Now, I love older men, but what is it with the older men who try to have sex(or not) with young girls and have no clue what they are doing. I like a man who can please me as much as I can please him.

I do really like him but I don't think I will see him again after that (unless he buys me a car!) :P

It was so weird.. Even the kissing! It went from ok to drool all in my mouth and the side of my face like he was tryin to eat me or something! & French kissing is not holding your tongue out for someone else to suck on...

What a weird evening I had.

I am meeting 2 more pots, one next week and one this weekend so we will see how that goes.

TTYL
TakeliaSB

Give 'em a chance...

There is this guy who has msgd me before on SA on one of my old profiles. I blew him off before because his pic looks really scary... :P

He sent me a msg on my new(ish) profile and I am wondering if I should give the guy a chance. I just cant get over that pic tho... *Shudders*

First impressions people!!

New Year!! New Pots! and the Broke ones...

I hope everyone had a great holiday! I took a little time off of sugar and other things to spend time with family and handle some things.

The last pot I spoke about Mr. LawyerDude (Mr. LD for short) finally got back to me about when he wanted to meet. I told him how much I wanted for p4p and he told me at the time he was fine with it. Now all of a sudden he thinks that it is way too much... Wow dude.. This guy is not a lawyer. I can tell from the way he talked or didnt talk about his job when we met.

Then he asked me how much would I charge him for a BJ.... Now if he couldn't afford the amount that I told him before to let him put his face in it I'm sure he wont be able to accommodate my fabulous BJs. lol

Why even bother??!

Then, why is it that so many of these 'SDs' think that escorts and SBs are one in the same.  He probably saw the Sd4me ad from bigdoggie too.. lol

I have a few more pots to work on, hopefully these will turn out much better. lol

Merry Christmas!!

This is my second Christmas in the sugar bowl and I still cant get enough. Its something about it that I cant stay away from. Kind of a rush I guess... A power trip.

Ok, so my meeting with the guy from my last post went well. I'm going to name him Mr. LaywerDude. :P

He says hes a lawyer, works nearby. We talked about all kinds of things. Mostly about how breath taking he thought I was. Needless to say he was seriously attracted to me. I told him I prefer to be blunt and get things over with in the very beginning so I don't waste months and many dates without neither of us really getting what we want.

We discussed allowances. Hes doable.. I prefer a monthly or at least bi-weekly allowance but he wants a per meeting. I told him how much I wanted per meeting and he said hes fine with it. Cool with me, as this will not be a consistent arrangement. He told me what he wanted which is to eat it. That's it... He only wants to wine & dine me and put his face in my puss. How Fun! lol As long as hes good at it...

So as always I'm keeping my options open and continuing to contact other pots. I love that they put a wink system on SA because sometimes I am really lazy :P and don't have the time or don't feel like typing a nice greeting or I come across someones profile and forget to send them a msg if they look good. This way I can just click a button! Pow!!



Another note. I absolutely hate time wasters.. and pic collectors. In the few days that I have come back to the site I have gotten quite a few of them. Ughh... Annoying!! Two in particular that really irked me. The first had good conversation to begin with and asked for more pics. I sent him 3 more. He then proceeded to ask me to send him more pics and said 'dont be shy' Really dude?? I have 2 pics on my profile already, so 5 pics of me is not enough?? GTFOH!!

The next one said that he wanted to make sure it was me and could I send him more pics, IN HIS FIRST EMAIL to me!! Then said he wanted me to get on webcam also to prove it!!

................

Come on.. Is it that serious? I know some of these men may have been scammed before but if the girl is not the same as her picture all you have to do is walk away. Why should I go out of my way to make him comfortable if he is not doing the same for me? It can be hard work finding a pot do they think that we really have time to sit and waste on a webcam on a chance that we MAY be able to meet!?! Like how the hell do I know you are who you really say you are, right?? And are you going to compensate me for my time taken out of my day to do all of that and meet you? Probably not...

Moving on. :)

Have a great Holiday!!!! I know I am!!

TakeliaSB

Flip Flop!!

I am such a flip flop!!! lol

I jump in, then I back out, then I come back, and pop out again... Hey I'm back again!! Did you miss me?? yea ook...

Anyway so I was bored and missing the sugar lifestyle so I decided to revive one of my SA profiles yesterday. Immediately I get a few msgs and one in particular stood out. So, off I go, I am meeting him tonight! I'm excited!!

Hes one of those guys who love giving but want nothing in return if you know what I mean...

Details later! I'm getting ready now! ;)

Sugar Baby is cheaper??

There is an ad on one of the escort directories/forums for sugardaddy4me.com. I've seen it for a while but looking at it today I decided to post it here. Now I already hate that site (sd4me) because all I got from there as a SB were time wasters, endless emails, cheapos, and broke ass mofos.

But on this ad... ughh... let me just post what it says:


Instead of Calling an Escort!
Get Your Own Private Sugar Baby Instead!
Click Here - we guarantee: you will never call an escort again!
A Sugar Baby is 1,000 times better in every way.
A Sugar Baby is cheaper.
She stays as long as you want.
She doesn't fake it like an escort does.
Save your money for the real thing not a fake!
Your Sugar Baby is yours alone.
Your Sugar Baby will do anything to keep you happy!
Sexy, gorgeous, beautiful.
Other men will envy you!
Hot, Willing Sugar Babies live right in your area.
Get pleased and appreciated

by your Sugar Baby Tonight!
Sugar Daddy For Me

Now this here pisses me off! First of all I would like to think that SDs are spending Wayyy more money on their SBs than on escorts!! We are cheaper!?! WTF!! Maybe this is the reason why these men from that site are so worthless and don't understand what it means to be a Sugar Daddy..  

What the fuck? Are we slaves or something? Stays as long as you want and do anything to keep you happy?? Yea, sure... Men don't realize that its all about us not them! lol

ETA: I took out the affiliate links

Dummy!!

This is funny.. So I posted my ad last night. Not really expecting too much income because its a monday.. But after a few hours I began to wonder why I didnt get not one call...  I went back to look over my ad and I realized that I posted pics with one number and the ad had an entirely different number!!!

Wow... Such a dummy.

So I'm assuming that whoever looked at my ad assumed that it was fake. :P Or I was stealing pics.. Like I really need to. Oh well!! Ha!

So, smart that I water mark ALL of my pics and use anonomous numbers. I have 2 prepaid cell phones and like 3 google voice numbers... As well as my regular cell. Dont ask why.. LMAO

But yea I do need to actually coordinate what numbers I am using with the right pics.

Silly me ;)

Fear...

I am posting my ad tonight, as we speak. I want to be an escort. A real Escort.

Fear has stricken me. I want to see what it will be like to have sex with a complete stranger and get money for it. Its so different from being a sugar baby but the same in so many ways.

I want to do it mostly because my life has taken so many turns and me as a woman, as myself, do not really feel like I can have or want a steady relationship at this point. Which is why I hardly see my current SD and have pushed so many away. Time is an issue. One that I cant avoid.

I do not have time to meet when his schedule permits. My time is devoted to other things. I am a night owl, he is not. Most of them arent. But I dont want to change my life and neglect things just for a little cash from someone.

I want to do what I want, when I want, and I dont want to have to work for it. Is that too much for me to ask?? :P Sex is easy and something that comes naturally to me.

For me to go out there for an hour or two at a time and show a man the time of his life seems so much more appealing. No need for the chemistry, the connection, the things that make being a Sugar baby so great. Just sex and cash.

Didnt I ever tell you that sex and money is what makes the world go round. Those two things make people happy. I dont care what anyone says. The two are one and mean nothing with out the other. I mean, what is a marriage to a rich man if you never have great sex? What is a relationship with a guy who is great in bed but cant offer anything else? Boring and poor...

Not what a girl like me is looking for.

I digress.

I have set up a fabulous website. Taken some provocative, sexy ametur pics. Devoloped verbage for an alluring ad. All I have to do is post it. Wait for the calls to come in and get my ass out there.

I have an exotic look. I am approached by men every time I walk out of the house. 5'7" 130lbs. Golden skin tone. Beautiful face, so I'm told ;). 34C, Curves in all the right places. This should be a peice of cake!

A new chapter in my life. Maybe I should start writing a book.. I swear it will be a HIT!!






P.S. One thing I cant stand about some of the post sites. The fact that so many women are low ballin like crazy! $100/hr??!?!  Get The Fuck Outta Here!! I would never ever go that low!! Aim higher ladies!! I wouldnt even call someone who charges so little compitition. I swear, its like the druggie street hookers learned how to use a computer! 

In a big city like this there is no way in hell a woman should go that low, you are attracting the WRONG customers.. SMH...

Like I said..

Aim Higher!!

damn shame

i have so many msgs in my inbox at sd its crazy! I'm not paying my membership just to read them, not yet at least.

in other news Mr. hotpot flaked on me. oh well, his loss. maybe it was for the best. idk if he would of been able to handle me with all this pent up sexual frustration... lol


I'm meeting Mr. tep this week. woot wooot

my baby busted the keyboard on my mbp, i cant type any caps or symbols and I'm pissed. ugh...

wont be able to do any real in depth posts till i get it fixed. fml

He can get it!!

Man...

Mr. HotPot is doin it for me. Gettin me all hot and bothered. I dont usually do sex on the first date but this guy is gonna get it! Got a room in a five star hotel in Manhattan and I just cant wait!

I'm back in the game yall!!

All details later...

About the current SD Mr. TEP. He's out of town at the moment and I'm impatiently waiting for him to return. Will let you all know how that goes also. ;)

The Double Life..

Sometimes I feel like I am leading a double life. I havent put my all into the game because I have been around people who wouldn't quite understand what I am doing and why. I have been lying to my family and sneaking around and I cant stand it.

I am a grown woman with responsibilities, goals, ambition, all that jazz but I feel like I'm in high school all over again at the same time. Makes me not want to be around my family at all.

I finally found a house, so that will all come soon enough and sneaking around will be a thing of the past.

Everything is slowly falling into place for me.. again... :P




(I just wish I didnt have to sneak around now cause things would have gone a hell of a lot faster!!)

Oh Mah Gah!!!

OMG!! I'm jumping the gun here and blogging a little too soon as usual.. lol But I had to post something about this guy.

*Drools*

Been chit chatting for a few days and I have been drooling over his pics!! This man is the meaning of SEXY! Ughh I cant stand it. All the SDs that I have met so far have been on the verge of being elderly with one Mr. Niceguy actually being grandpa age! Or they have been just butt fuckin ugly, maybe just ok looking... It is so refreshing to see that there are men who I would hit on and fuck the shit out of without any strings/allowance attached!

God this man is so fuckin sexy. Big muscles, great smile, good size dick... & he sends me a new pic with every email. I'm getting a little hot & bothered over here! lmao His allowance is 5 grand monthly. Not bad at all, he just dont know!

I haven't had sex in a few months and I def would give it to him if we get that far.

Oh, a few of my previous pots who didn't really go anywhere with me have contacted me and I am wondering if I should give them the time of day. Hmmm... We will see.


In other non-sugar news, my ex, who I have blogged about, the young guy I have been seeing since last Dec. has been calling me. I think this boy is seriously in love with me. I never took him seriously before when he would say he loved me because he is so young, and because of our circumstances I don't think he knows what he wants.

I'm starting to believe him.. But the thing is, I do not want for there to be anything more than what there was before. My life is way to complicated for that. As we all know... I think I'm going to have to add another to my list of broken hearts. :P


I met this new guy online, fine, young, almost my type.. lol I like em dark for some reason. I have a love for all kinds of men but there is nothing like a sexy, large, dark skinned stallion. mmm yum! I wonder if I could find a replica of my BD here without all the drama and completely NSA.

I wonder if I could even find a guy and keep him as my fuck toy without him wanting more.. I have never been successful with that in the past. They always want more. ugh

ok anywayz about the new guy. Hes an army boy, my age, college student. He is brown skinned, not dark. Meh I can work with that. He's really cute and I think if the Hot Pot (Think I found his name) from above doesnt get it first Ima give it to him just cause I'm so damn horney.. :P

Men...                                                                                                                                          

Pink penis?

It was pink... ahaha

At least it wasn't smaller than my 2 yr olds like Mr. Niceguy... :P

Ok... I need to stop talking about people's unfortunate circumstances... haha I'm so rude sometimes...

Anyway, I went to see my SD Mr. TEP last week. He showed me around and we ended up in an empty room... Nothing much happened on my part... lol, but all I can say is that he left satisfied... haha He's so easy. We talked for a little bit and walked around some more. I love the city. IDK what it is about it.

He stuffed a wad of $20s in my pocket. I love how everytime we meet he gives me more cash than the last time just for meeting. Yea so as far as the actual allowance goes, he is setting up an account for me to use in any way i like... We will see... :/

I'm finally meeting up with my SD this weekend! I'm so excited!! Details later...
*muah*


ETA:
I am having the hardest time figuring out how to wear my hair. Should I wear my natural hair out, pretty and curly? Or should I wear it straight and long?
I dont know if he would be into the natural look, having only seen me with long straight hair... But alot of men are. I usually get tons of compliments and interest when I wear my natural hair.
Decisions, decisions...

Bad, bad SB!!

I've been neglecting my sugar daddy... Bad!

I have my reasons for not contacting him for days at a time. Its not because he does not interest me... IDK...

I guess I just need some me time. Once I sort everything out in my life I will be fine and he can have me whenever he likes. lol

But right now, I just need for him to be patient.

Has anyone ever felt that way?? Or am I the only one?

I'm going to have to visit him some time this week though, so he doesn't forget about how infatuated he is with me... hehehheee

The date...

Yea, so me and Mr. TEP went on our second date. Great time. He makes me laugh and I really enjoy spending time with him. I drove out to meet him. It was late so we went to a bar and got a drink and some food.

It was funny that as we were ordering our drinks the waiter was winking at me and trying to get my attention while my date was sitting right there. I thought that was hilarious! We talked for about 2 hours and then he drove me to the beach.

Mind you it was kinda in the middle of no where I had no way of knowing where I was and how to get back to my car which was parked up waiting for me to come back. Bad things kept flashing in my mind. You always hear those stories about a young woman getting murdered and left on the side of the road... I tried not to think that way. I had my pepper spray and I do know how to fight having been in an abusive relationship... Gosh, I couldnt live out there at all myself. I dont care how nice the houses are. ughh...

Anyways...

We got to the beach and we kissed and cuddled. He told me he didnt want to move too fast just yet. I dont know if I was relieved or disappointed by that. lol After our romantic time together we went back to my car, he gave me $200 and filled up my gas tank and I was on my way home.

Truthfully, I am ready to make this more serious. Lets establish a monthly allowance already!! Sheesh!! haha!

Taking things slow...

I dont know if I can claim that Mr. TEP is actually my SD as of yet. But we are currently working on what this is going to be. So far he has told me that all my expenses are going to be covered as I finish school. He wants to take things slow as far as the physical aspect of the relationship goes.

We are supposed to be looking at Apts together for me next week... We will see about that. Plus I'm still looking have not found what I'm looking for just yet. He also wants to go over my college transcripts to help me get into the right school. How sweet. :P

We have only met twice so far, and have been speaking for months. The relationship is definitely blossoming. I like him a lot as a person and I know he likes me. He has told me so many times. :)

Right now it seems to me that he may be the real deal. He has been nothing but a gentleman the entire time I've known him. You know how you meet some of these people and just know right off that they are looking for only one thing... Sex is all that is on their minds. With this guy, I have not felt that in any way! Surprising, to me at least.

I think that this just may be what I have been looking for. Just maybe...


One thing that I think I will never get used to..

Stubble. It feels like my skin was being scraped by sandpaper when I kissed him. So not used to that, an I really dont like it. Keep that shit smooth, please! or grow a goatee... My lips still hurt. :P

The Perfect Sugar Daddy

So I wrote out this whole post on how I think I may have fotnd the Prefect SD... But something happened and it got erased when I hit publish. ughh.. Oh well! There is nothing set in stone yet but I will give all the details after our meeting in the beginning of the week.

Oh yea, dont you just love how things can just be sitting there staring you in the face and you never think about them or dont seriously pursue them until way later. To think I have wasted all these months and Mr. TEP could actually be the one. yea yea...




Aside from that, after my usual blog stalking I want to say that the SB blogger community should support one another. Everyone goes through tough times and nothing that we say about it is going to change that. We can't always walk in eachothers shoes and judging someone's life based on a few words written in a simple online blog/journal is not productive.

I myself have come across so many obstacles in my life and absoultely nothing that anyone had to say helped me one bit. I had to take it upon myself to ignore everyone's opinion of how I was living MY life and do everything that I could so that things would not be forever fucked up.

Also, whatever opinions someone had about me based on what I wrote online.. Please! Seriously, go to hell because I have never told my whole life story anywhere online. Not refering to this particular blog... But its funny how people assume they know everything that goes on in someones life based on one or two blog posts or a video, ect...

I guarantee you that there is much much more to the story.

All that to say, dont judge when you dont know the entire story first of all. You just make an ass of yourself in the end. I hate judgemental people.. ughh..

Secondly, when you find yourself in a bad place in life, please do not focus on the negative. Always have a backup plan. Always continue to plan and work towards your future. Time will never stand still and sitting around and waiting for something to happen will just make things worse. Bills will only pile up, the longer you wait the more you will owe.


Ok, enough of the self help crap!! Its time to potty train my baby!! Hes pulling off his doody diaper!!! Eeewwww.........

Wish me luck on that one... :P

TakeliaSB

Chemistry...

So I've been taking care of business and have not done much as far as my sugar search goes. Have not spoken to any pots in a while but, shit I gotta handle my shit first before I can put myself into any type of relationship. You know.

Recently I began msging back and forth with this guy and I could tell what he wanted from the beginning. So we met tonight for drinks...

At the end of the 'date' he says to me, you are a beautiful girl but, he does not think that we have chemistry. ok...

Sometime I just don't get what that means. I made it clear that I was not looking for anything long term. Maybe just a few rolls in the sack some $$$ in my pocket and that would be it.

He was obviously attracted to me, kept touching my leg inching closer & closer, kissed me a few times on the cheek. Maybe it was the fact that he could tell that I was not attracted to him. Err uhh... I need to learn to hide my disgust sometimes.. lmao!

But seriously! I understand the need for chemistry if you are looking for a long term sugar relationship, but if you are merely looking for a quick fuck what the fuck does chemistry have to do with it. I can fake my way through anything if I have to. The last one didn't notice one bit!!

This is why I'm still contemplating escorting... That shit is so annoying to me. Maybe I should hold off on the sugar for a little while and come back when I'm not so.... distracted... disgusted... idk lol I'll figure it out.

Temptation...

A little while ago I posted about being an escort. For the past few days I have been searching and reading as much as I could on the subject. I am following a few escort blogs and their experiences are very interesting to me. I came across another blog where a former escort talks about the bad side of it all.

I do respect her views and opinions but I am still seriously contemplating getting into it... At least small time.

My reasoning??

• I love sex! I am never satisfied... Sad none of my boyfriends could ever keep up with me except my kids father.

• The money is fantastic! & we all know why we are here.. I LOVE money! $$$

• I would be able to work whenever I want. I don't need a million dollars so I'm sure I would never let it consume my life.

• Many talk about how their relationships are with men.. Well I don't want a relationship! I don't want to get married! Not a factor for me...

• What reason do I have not to?? 

The question is will I actually go through with it? Will I create my own website and post my ads? Hmmm.. Time will tell.. And knowing me I will probably do it sooner rather than later.

Shit, I kinda already got it all planned out...

Cursed with bad luck... FML

So I left last night feeling great with high hopes that it was going to be a night to remember. I quickly made my way to the GW bridge but as I was passing the last exit I could have gotten off at the traffic came to a halt...

I heard sirens and saw emergency vehicles as I approached at about 2 miles per hour... There was an accident!! So basically I was stuck in traffic for almost 3 hrs at a stand still then when I finally got to the GW there was only one cash only toll lane open I didnt make it over the bridge until 2 hrs after I was supposed to be meeting Mr. TEP.

To make a long miserable story short, I missed out on meeting my pot for the night. It was horrible... So bad I cried... Yes.. I cried...